Long day. I went and visited an apartment. I'm moving, ex and I broke up. I like the place and I hope I get it, although it's on the 17th floor (top) of the building...I don't like heights...but it's a nice place. It will be the place I finally can be myself.
Back to my current residence, I was in the lobby of my building.. My mail-carrier, delivered my latest order from my online shopping. And that's great, because he asked if I was Tyra,. in the middle of a busy apartment lobby. He knows my face, and I've ordered a lot of things lately. Whatever. He came to my door a few minutes later with my packages. I signed, end of story. I've been walking around the place in my hot-pink pants...you, know something to relax in...and then my landlord knocked on the door. It was an awkward exchange...to say the least. I kept it professional, but he couldn't keep his eyes off of what I was wearing. I had no time to change, but I'm leaving here in a month so what does it matter? The fucks I give have run dry. Can't I cross-dress in a little bit of privacy? If they all want to watch, let me know! I welcome it.
I got my new lip-liner, my new foundation. In a day or two I'll have 3 new dresses from Forever 21. Yes....I'm 33....but whatever. I haven't cut my nails in a week, and will be painting them soon. I get to wear gloves at work! Actually that is a big step for me. Nail biter.
I'm still lonely, and depressed, but getting better, even if it's on my own. Thank you.
sometimes you have to just let it go or you go insane. My struggle is I can get away with mascara shadow lipstick in nude but I really want to wear my heels so bad. I keep saying, Someday. I hope your someday comes for you.
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ReplyDeleteThank you so much. That last line made me tear up.
I don't think I could get away with it, but perhaps I'll try with the nudes. Although, since I started wearing Mascara at home on a daily basis -it's amazing how defined my lashes look even when I take it off. It's like I've combed them (which I suppose essentially I have) and someone is going to call me on it, which is totally scary and totally makes me giddy. I want a girl to compliment me on my lashes, and think that I'd look great in mascara...then try to talk me into letting her try it -this is turning into a bad porn scenario isn't it?
Getting heels has been a struggle so far. Sizing, finding the right size, and buying from a Canadian retailer, because as I found with a couple things I bought from the US -I basically paid double to have it shipped here to Toronto. But I have my eye on a fab pair of boots that I think may be worth it :)
I love the CCR song, Someday never comes, but screw Fogerty...my Someday will! Thank you so much again for the comment and support.
-Cintia